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                                                                  By Petar Meseldzija 
Last week, John Fleskes from FleskPublications and I have decided that my book on giants will be released in the spring of 2015, with
Kickstarter campaign starting in August this year. 

Ogre-Shaman, from The Book of Giants

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This book is a major project for me not only because
of the scope of its pictorial content (it will include about 120 drawings, as
well as a number of  paintings), but also
because of its general concept.  As far
as I am concerned, the book’s textual part is almost as
important as its visual components, which is, I have to admit, a big challenge for
me because I am not a writer. The “problem” is that I have all those ideas, and
nobody can look into my head better than myself. Fortunately there is one thing
that is helping me – the inspiration! Yes, that wonderfully illusive word that
has become somewhat unpopular nowadays, to the point that it is considered a taboo
in the certain circuits.  Well, this certainly does not apply to me. Moreover,
I am thankful  (to whom I don’t know, but
I am genuinely thankful) for being able to be in contact with my Muse. I can’t,
and will not, speak about HER nature, for I am afraid that my explanation would
soon turn into a subjective speculation, 
while objectivity is required here. On the other hand, how to talk
objectively about something that is so obviously subjective in nature? Tricky!
Anyway, if you asked me whether this inspiration is
coming from deep within me, out of the obscure, vast storage of experience,
knowledge, information, suppressed 
emotions, etc., in short the unconscious; or whether I think it could be
attributed to an “external” source, (un)popularly called the “divine”; and
under the presumption that these two are considered as separate “entities”
(which, in a way, I don’t believe they are), my answer must be – I don’t know!
Although most of the time my inspiration can be traced back to the things which
were/are on my mind,  however sometimes I
really don’t know where all these ideas and concepts are coming from. The only
thing I know is that they appear on the surface of my mind, often abruptly, . No,
don’t even think about it – I am not talking here about the spiritual visions
of any kind (when it comes to that, I am as empty and as talentless as a
chimney). Forget “automatic writing” as well. I am simply talking about
inspiration, something all of us experience from time to time.
Back to my book – there are moments when stories and
ideas just keep on popping up, seemingly from nowhere, so quickly that I have
troubles writing them down. I must admit that I am somewhat delighted by this, but
at the same time a little sad as well. I can’t remember that I ever experienced
such a  strong flow of inspiration in connection
to my paintings. Or perhaps it is another type of inspiration, a milder one that stretches
itself over a longer period of time, contrary to the latter that often happens
in bursts and lasts not very long. In general, painting is for me a bit of inspiration
(mostly external) + much of hard work. With writing it is exactly the other way
around, the biggest part of it goes to inspiration, or to be more precise – it
flows out of inspiration. Because I am not an experienced writer, I have troubles
writing without inspiration. It is frustrating, really! Besides, I write in
English, and my English is not perfect; yet I dare write in English. A perfect
recipe for making a fool of oneself, you might think. And you might be right. But
somehow, when inspiration strikes, I am able to write. That is not to say that my
writings can be compared to those of the real writers…oh, no, not at all! My writings
are very humble and basic. My ideas and the simplicity of expression are the
only weapons from the writer’s arsenal which I have at my disposal. You might
think, and not without reason, what is to become of such a book then? Has
Petar finally lost his mind? …To be honest, I don’t know. YOU will have to tell
me later when the book is published! I only know that I have to take that risk. 
It is as if a genie, or a demon, has taken possession of me, and the only
thing I can do is to obey him. That is inspiration for me. Is it internal or
external? I don’t know. It does not matter to me! The results of this endeavor is
what matters, and the impact of it on our development, on becoming more
complete as a being, and live a fuller life. The question is not whether the
things we believe in are objectively true or not (define Truth!), but instead how much
they feed and support the psychic foundation of our lives.
After all, life is an incomprehensible mystery, a miracle,
and we are just a tiny particle, a speck of dust in its entirety. Neglecting,
or suppressing that what spontaneously arises from the vastness of the unconscious,
the psyche, is not the wisest thing to do. In fact it is the road to psychosis. Open-minded and bravely encountering and dealing with it as best as we can,
however scary, painful and tricky it might be, is the way of the hero in us. One
and the same hero who, after having 1000 different faces, is still eager to have yours, and mine, as well.